Is this an illusion?
A cruel mirage
Painted by enemies
Waiting for me to fail
Is it finally my time?
When I get the one I need
The person who will finally help me see the light
Or am I just getting my hopes up again
Am I finally allowed to love freely
Not having to worry if someone will be there to catch me
Can I finally breathe a sigh of relief
Or should I stand on guard
Will this person finally be mine
Or should I prepare for their untimely exit
When there seems to be no catch
Except my anxiety reminding me of all the previous experiences
©Writing the Rose
©writingtherose.com
Sarah Do
19 January 2021
